Thanks for your reply. They just don't seem to understand. On one hand I know it's not my fault as it was the paramedic's decision to leave that technician working alone, and I know nothing of the person's medical history. It could have been an elderly person with heart problems and a DNR as for all I know. On the other hand, I'm thinking what she said was true. Whilst I know this is my dissociative part making me think this, I just can't seem to ignore it.