((((((((((((( manda )))))))))))))

None of us is perfect in this world. We are all "a work in progress"

I think manda that you will make a good camp councelor. Even if you have issues of your own that you are trying to work through and deal with...you should be able to take that and use it as a councelor. You can't possibly know what kind of issues will come up at any given time, and when they do, you will learn how to deal with them as they arise.

I don't think your friend at camp will be disappointed in you. I think she will feel badly that you are hurting to the point of feeling like you need to SI. I have a friend who SI's and I'm never disappointed in her when it happens. I am sorry she is hurting and I try to help her through that hurt, and I'll bet that's what your friend tries to do also.

If she is watching you so closely, she is probably trying to find out what may trigger you so that she can be available to you when you feel the need for help. If this is uncomfortable for you, you can always talk to her about it. Let her know that her watchful eye is troubling you and making it difficult for you to enjoy yourself. Maybe you can come up with a plan with her that if you find yourself feeling triggered, you can have a code you use with her so she will know. In that way she won't have to be so watchful and you can take some responsibility for letting her know when you need help.

I hope you have a grand time at camp. Relax, enjoy, learn and grow. For that is what it's all about now isn't it?


sabby