I fathom this will be short as this restoril is apparantly fast acting. Tomorrow, my teacher and other assistant is out. Wtf am I going to do? Me and subs? With a classroom full of special needs children, a couple violent, a few in diapers? I will be the only one in the room certified to restrain and I don’t think I can refrain the biggest kid and he is one of my two violent boys. Today was already awful. AWFUL! I have so much anxiety it’s ridiculous and I either want to cry or actually do cry all day. I’m in contact with pdoc at least once a day and she’s not crazy about me going in under the circumstances. She says if I get too stressed they’ll just have to pull elsewhere from the building and make it work. I just can’t imagine putting them in that position though.