I'm so sorry, seeker33 Spirituality is not for everyone, please don't feel guilty about it. I'd suggest to just try to avoid anything related to it if it bothers you so much. If there are any people in your life that like to discuss this topic, ask them not to bring it up, if you haven't already. Avoid any social media sites that talk about spirituality. Unfortunately we can't change the world by ourselves, but we can change how we react to it. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. We're here for you if you need it. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice to give to you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Please don't feel guilty about venting here. You're not bothering us at all! We won't judge you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help tyou. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you