That was a terrible thing to say to you, Angie84! This is a classic case of victim blaming. Of course it wasn't your fault that other person died. You were hurting and you needed help just as everyone else would have in your situation. And besides, it wans't your responsability. Please try to forget those hurtful words. You absolutely deserve help if this should happen again. Don't hesitate to call the ambulance whenever you need it. You're as worthy of help as everyone else. I'm so sorry that the other person died, of course, but it wasn't your fault. I hope you'll feel better soon. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you