Thanks xmascarol. Yes, it's difficult all right. In twenty years, thinking positive has only seen me get gradually worse, ha. But it's helped in other ways I suppose. Yep, I feel the same way; and I have lost my mind a few times. It's a tough journey but just keep doing what you think may be helping, that's what I do.

Sending you strength of spirit and perseverance, xmascarol.