I'm so sorry, stanisvlaski Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your anxiety, if you haven't already. Anxiety is hard to deal with, I struggle with it as well sometimes. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you