Thanks. Yeah, that part you quoted both bothered and confused me, too. Because in the past, he's said that if I wanted to consult with another T, that was fine, or if I wanted to see a different one for a while, I was always welcome to come back to him later if I wanted, as, "I'm not going anywhere." Whereas this with the backups sounded almost like he was being a bit possessive, both of his backup T's and me, in a way. I mean, maybe these are people he's also friends with so it would bother him more if I went with one of them instead of some random other T? I don't know...

The only other thing that occurred to me is that maybe they're in the consulting group with him, which would mean that he'd (anonymously) told them about the whole stone thing, so...maybe that could be weird? Like, I don't know, they all seemed to support his reaction in the group (I think?), so if I brought it up with a backup T, and they told me something different...Hm, or I don't know, maybe it's not just about that, but about his colleague getting a more negative of him from stuff I shared. Because recently, when I was saying something negative about ex-T, he was like, "I admit I kind of wonder what you'll tell your next T about me..." He said it sort of jokingly, but I imagine there might have been more behind that.

Anyway, maybe I'll attempt contacting a few T's from Psychology Today, saying in the email what I'm looking for and seeing if they have any availability that week, just to see if I get any bites.