I do have therapy but I had to pause it for unexpected practical reasons. I do want to return soon (in the spring). I tried discusing this in therapy but my T wasn't helpful at all, she hates Christianity and tries to encourage me to be either atheist or new age. There were two or three sessions when she encouraged me when I said I was more interested in Christianity but I felt she wasn't genuine, she didn't understand me at all or why I was doing it. I tried explaining things to her so many times but she still doesn't understand! And it's very difficult to share my thinking when I know she personally disagrees. Because she's into crystals and such.

I have no one to talk to... don't even know what kind of profession or whatever would help me.