This is hard for me to answer well because I'm in the process of grieving him still... BUT that being said, I still deeply love him...

So has it been damaging? No. I think the damaging part itself is the loss, like it was with my dog. Loving my dog, was beautiful and powerful and made our relationship amazing, losing him, because I loved him so much, has been the damaging part... but I think that's to be expected in loss

The same with T, only difference is.... I typically don't "love" humans. I knew exactly the point when I started to feel love for him as opposed to just liking him or being comfortable etc. I got scared and had to talk to myself often about if it's worth the risk. Even though we had a few bumps long the way, once he knew of my feelings, I think it was worth me experiencing that for someone. Although currently I wish I hadn't because this loss is so difficult and heartbreaking but then again I remind myself 'Its because you love him'

If I had the choice to experience love all over with my dog again, I would. It's such a pure love. A non judgemental love. A love without limits.

If I had to chose to love T or not all over again? I'd chose not. Simply because this hurts more than I ever imagined it could. I think DURING the time he was in my life... it was healing, the hugs, the support, the conversations with him about anything blunt, the arguments, the laughs, all of it was healing in a point... but the loss now is to much for me to bear... I could not willingly chose this again if given the choice.