Hello Mortem: Thank you for sharing your concerns here on PC.

I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.
One thing you might do, here on PC, is to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer. Perhaps they may help you to clarify what you're struggling with. Here's a link to the listing of quizzes & tests that are available:
Psychological Quizzes and Tests
I hope you find PC to be of benefit.