I used to have a seething anger for everyone and everything. I was exactly like the Social Distortion song "I Was Wrong"

I have eventually tackled my mental illness and my anger has subsided. A lot of this has to do with the path my life took from a point of ending it to where I am now, married for 10 years and a nice life.

I mainly just tried to get f***ed up and escape. But then that didn't work anymore. I do play music and create it. It brings me joy, but now I am in a public arena and it is hard sometimes. I know not to compare to others, but it is hard. I find myself jealous and angry at some people's success.

I am currently working on my need to get back to not caring how people regard me or give me positive feedback and just create for the fun of creating. Trying to do that.