I'm feeling very disgusted with my body. I keep trying to tell myself positive affirmations but I can't get past the fact of the weight I've gained the past 3 or 4 months. I feel huge, I'm constantly aware of my body. I know realistically that weight doesn't define me but I can't help feeling....disgusting.

I'm sorry for the negativity, I just needed to express how I'm feeling. I want to get better. I ate dinner earlier even though I didn't really want to, I wanted to skip. I made a mistake though and ate really spicy food and drank black coffee all day. Not a good combination with the silent GERD I developed. I never had a problem with spicy food or drinking tons of coffee before but since the GERD started it feels bad, like acid burning in my stomach.