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Originally Posted by Gabyunbound
I'm so sorry you're going through such fears and depending on professionals you don't trust.
You didn't say much about it, but I was struck by what your T said about your fears stemming from childhood, and as an adult when you really were persecuted (If I understood it right). Do you think you might be suffering from PTSD along with Bipolar and because the PTSD hasn't been addressed (I think), your Bipolar, or your overall mental health, has been so intractable?
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You are spot on. My T believes my fears of being controlled, manipulated, stalked and abused may stem my from my horrible experiences as a child and carry on experiences as an adult. He wants us to start exploring these issues more deeply (I have always resisted going there as I was terrified and felt it no longer impacted my life). I now think is is a path that may finally help me recover to a degree. I still believe I can surely fix this with my mind but am now convinced that this therapy will clear my mind to be able to do this successfully.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
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