My diagnosis used to be Bipolar with PTSD but my T and pdoc believed the PTSD was in remission. Now they believe it is back in full force. Great, just what I need.I had over five years of therapy with my T (who is specialised and wonderful at treating PTSD) and it seemed to have worked without having to go into the specifics of the years of abuse.

Finally, I still think someone is out to harm me but have at least crossed my T and pdoc off the list. I am still terrified to in the hospital as it could be a nurse or patient but I think the fear is subsiding a bit.

My pdoc is trying me on Geodon, Tegretol and another med I cannot recall and taking me off of Lamotrigine and Seroquel. I really hope this works as I feel hopeless and very suicidal. I am still on watch to be taken to a locked ward should I define. It is scary. I am trying to be upbeat but the staff know I am putting it on as I have my vulnerable moments where I disclose mu true intentions.

Thanks again for you support.