I'm so sorry you're struggling, IssaColdWorld I'm so sorry about your sibiling. It must have been terrible to live through that. It's also terrible that you've been misdiagnosed for all of these years. Unfortunately it seems like this happens quite often to those who are struggling with Bipolar. But at least you've got a proper diagnosis now. Good for you! Hopefully you'll be able to get the treatment you need and deserve. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn some new ways to cope with you feelings when they get too overwhelming. Just remember that we're here to support you. Do you have a support system IRL? Any friends or family that could help you? Either way, we're here for you. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this