I have been suicidal for weeks, which is the main reason I am iP. Suddenly after starting Geodon I am hypomanic. My thoughts are racing, my mood is high as a kite, BUT, my thoughts still obsess over death. I was put in here due to psychosis and SI. The psychosis seems to be waning as I am beginning to have insight, but this contradictory mood and thoughts is really odd. Anyone had this before. Maybe mixed? My mixed is usually depressed with manic symptoms on top. This seems to be the reverse. I love life so much right now but want to destroy it too. WTF is that?

Sorry I am hogging the posts. My mind is on fire. What do I tell the nurses? or my pdoc if I see him today? I want to stay happy. I don't want them to take my happiness away.