well i'm afraid to know if i was raped as a baby here is the story but when i was like 1 or 2 my grandmother took me with her to peru for 6 months while my mother took care of my new born sister i never understood why my parents would allow that but they did anyhow yesterday i discovered some more clues to my thought of being raped here it is i told my dad that i thought i was raped because when i was 15 i had my first gyno appt and the doc said my hymen was really messed up i thought how odd it should not be like that because i'm a virgen but i told her and she said listen ur mom is not in the room u can tell me if u have sex i need to know i said i'm honest she said what u do in ur spare time is none of my bussines after that i put it in the back of my mind because i said maybe i broke my hymen on a see saw as a kid i dunno i just thought it was no big deal well 6 yrs ago my gma and uncle and my mom were in a car with we were going somewhere well my mom was talking about going to peru for vaca my uncle said aww please don't go and come back saying ur daughter was raped again i was stunned to hear that because my uncle is mentally handicapped so when he speaks it usally the truth i asked i said what is he talking about i remember my gma shutting him up my mom said aww u know ur uncle ignore him but it stayed in my mind till now well talking to my dad about it he said we will get the records from ur old gyno and see what she said io was like ok then my dad said wait a minute he called my mom in the romm and said to her remember when steph was in peru with her gma she had been sick there what did she have well my gma told them i had a urinary tract infection i would not pee my dad then said what if that was a lie and she was raped by someone and then ur gma wants to cover it i was scared because i have always been great kid and never been abused my sis once but not me so that scared me then my dad said and if u were raped young that may be why u developed anxiety disorder now i feel compelled to find out the truth but i' not to sure i want to know it may break my heart !