Yeah I dunno. Everythings been quieter lately which is good but I still... I dont like life right now. It is stupid because I do have a lot going for me- Im not dying in a third world country or homeless or anything... but I just feel like Im emotionally being crushed to pieces.

I dont want to be mentally ill. I dont want to take medication. I just want to escape from all of this and have everything just magically become good. But maybe thats just being greedy I dunno.

Even though the voices havent been around much lately doesnt mean they wont come back. And I know its going to happen and Im just so tired of it