My thoughts are your T genuinely cares for you Echos ( and I'm finding that slightly triggering , but it's my stuff and it's good for me I think ). I feel your next session could be very productive if it's handled well ( and I hope it will be ) there's probably some very deep feelings in there. I so liked your T's analogy about being roped together climbing a mountain. My T is very stable for me too , there have been times I've wanted to cut the rope though. I imagine these feelings are quite difficult and strange for you. Hugs.