I'm so sorry, AlwaysChanging2 Please don't give up. I know how hard things can be. You've got this. From what you wrote, it sounds like you're trying the best you can, and that's great! That's all you can do after all. Don't be so hard on yourself. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you