If you wouldn’t mind sharing, is there a way your sessions with your Ts usually begin? And how do you navigate it, do you prepare ahead of time or just see how things play out?
Mine will usually have a sentence or two of small talk.... then comes the question, every single week “so.... what do you want to talk about today?” For reference, I’ve never had an answer to this. I struggle, I’d like to have one. But I don’t know where to begin. I don’t want to own that I want anything, even if it’s just wanting to talk about something. Every week, I try so hard to think of something to reply to this, but a pathetic “I don’t know” comes out. It’s soinds automatic and as if I’m being difficult, but I’m not. I’m desperate for words. I don’t have words. I feel like I’ve hardly touched the surface in therapy yet, but I’m starting to get so anxious over having the responsibility of starting these sessions that I’m beginning to think of ways to cancel my appointments.
She encourages emails outside of session but I don’t like to do that. I don’t want to invade into her time outside of our sessions.

Maybe if I had some starting sentences.... I could pick one and continue from those. But I realize that therapy is such an individual process, no one could exactly tell me what I should want to talk about. I’m just lost at this point.