I'm sorry sweetie that you find yourself in this position. Do you feel that a hospital stay will be of benefit to you? Does the mere thought of being hospitalized scare you? Hugs sweetie. I've desperately tried to remain out of the hospital although I've gotten very very close a few times, once on my own decision, something I NEVER thought I would do. Maybe this could be a positive thing for you? I think changing it over to a voluntary stay is a good idea, as someone already said. That way you should find it easier to get out if you should choose. I wish you the very best.