I'm so sorry, blackrainbow DID is certainly not easy to accept or to live with. You're definitely not alone in this. How is your therapy going? Is it helping a bit? Hopefully you'll learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you