Talked to my nurse. Pdoc apparently on his way. I don’t trust them for good reason - not paranoia. Very agitated and volatile. Will have to run before they detail me. Yet too scared too. After nearly being locked up last night NO ONE asked how I was and my pdoc didn’t visit as he said. No one here cares. This triggers me no end. I am going to act. I’m so worked up, freaked out and have no options left. Only killing myself will prove my point.