Please stay safe, Wander. I know things are really hard for you right now. But remember that you're strong! You have so much more to give to this world. Don't throw it all away. Talk to us if it helps. Anything to keep your mind occupied. Please stay away from those negative thoughts. We all love you here. This world wouldn't be the same without you. Things can and will get better at some point. Please don't hurt yourself. I'm here for you if you want to talk privately. Just give yourself some time before doing to anything. Count to ten. Wait a few hours. Hopefully you'll feel better then. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this