I'm so sorry, Wander If it can help you stay safe, I'd suggest to go to the hospital. It's your decision. Just do whathever you feel it's the right thing to do. Whatever will help you feel safe. Just be careful. You deserve to live well. I'm so sorry you're going through. Please remember that it won't last forever. You will feel better at some. Take all the time you need. Take baby steps. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Keep writing here if it helps. Remember that you're stronger than you think. You've got this. Stay safe and take care of yourself. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you