In our system, we function as a group living life day by day, moment to moment aware and ready to switch as life sees fit. So as a group (us) we come across as a carefree person that enjoys life and has little inhibitations...until people start shaming us, growling at us, ridiculing us....

One by one each alter that got embarrassed quits fronting causing our outward appearances to change and feelings of hurt surge within, but we struggle on.

We hate this because now we feel like we are uncontrollably conforming to other people’s opinions of us as people pleasers....being unintentionally manipulated (or is) to fit what they say and want...much as our father did to us our whole life. We over care as to what others think of us until we are a jungled mass of hurt leading to a breakdown.

We have a real narcissist azz at work who growls at our wit that now when we are around him, most of us shut down leaving us devoid of character. This pisses me off to the point of either hurting him (which most wont do) or mostly hurting ourselves as per our norm. So like a good little soldier we just carry on feeling strangled when in their presence. We hate this, but the hurt others refuse to front in fear of them getting their feelings hurt again which is our feelings which also has us getting also mad at ourselves. This has often led to name calling and ridicule about out and within. We are very sensitive.

Maybe this is the want behind integration or at least it should be... but we are so adverse that most don’t, the hurt ones want to hide, and we live on less as a person with a pulsating hurt deep within.

How does one bring us together specifically from within without any outside help?