I'm so sorry, 251turnaround I agree with BirdDancer. Talk to your psychiatrist about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. I'm so sorry you're going through this, please don't give up. It must be really hard for you. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you