Is it meant to feel like something is happening?

I’m seeing my therapist as I start making steps to leave my emotionally abusive heterosexual relationship. I came to the conclusion that I’m gay a couple years ago and my therapist is aware of this.

We’ve had about four sessions, but I was seeing her for about three months this time last year. I feel like we just chat about what’s happened that week, what I’ll do next, with a strong focus on my relationship , and some about how I’m feeling. So, this week I mentioned feeling like I’m still living a pretence, despite talking to people about my relationship, and that I felt suffocated. I said I’d just have to keep going through the motions until I’m on the other side and prioritise that, which she agreed with, and is correct I guess...but I’m disappointed that she agreed. I want to be working on/talking about some of the sexuality stuff too. It took quite a lot for me to mention it too, given I feel so uncomfortable talking about it, and it’s a big part of my experience of my relationship. Perhaps I need to be more direct?

I just feels like we’re not doing anything, I guess. It does help having somebody to discuss it all with, but I don’t feel that anything is happening as such. I’s feel less push to take steps to leave my relationship without her, so whilst I think it might be time to leave, then I also don’t want to, which makes me feel pathetic. It feels a bit like she’s said we can’t talk about the sexuality stuff, which she hasn’t, but that’s how it feels.

I don’t know if this makes sense or whether I’m being fair.