Hard day at work. Met with t after which was great. She thinks my job is too stressful for me right now and that I should take a leave. I cried with her. I’ve been crying. I only cry when severely anxious and depressed. I’m over it. Funny, I was telling her about Ani Difranco and she was asking me what kind of music she sings. So, since I’ve been so obsessed with music anyway, I decided to text her an Ani song (she is fairly laid back with texts as long as you don’t take advantage and we had been talking about music just s few hours prior) and it occurred to me only after I sent it that the song I sent her “Overlap” is sexual in nature. I SURELY hope she doesn’t read into that because I certainly didn’t mean anything by it. Oh well, it’s done now. Thankfully, I told her how hard it was to wait a week to see her because I was falling apart at the seems so I have an appointment scheduled for Monday.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
Last edited by cashart10; Feb 07, 2019 at 10:53 PM.
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