Went and saw my psych nurse. Still coming off the diazepam by 2 mgs every month. I really didn't want to go. It's so cold here and my back has really been hurting. But I made it. She said the increased pain could be coming off the benzos, and to talk to to my gp about getting muscle relaxers.

My sons sleep schedule is all turned upside down. When he's up, he's just wanting me to buy him stuff. It gets exhausting with him asking me. But I usually give in. I have never been good with boundaries with him. I had him so young and idk, I feel bad that his dad is such a jerk and never been there for him.

I'm doing ok all in all. Hugs to those that need them.