Thanks everyone. I read all your posts. Yes, I have been acting like an arse. So combative, self-entitled, and demanding, wanting the world to revolve around me. I feel terrible about how I have been acting and now I have calmed down I intend to make some significant changes. First, be thankful that I have access to an amazing health system only 20 minutes from my flat, second be thankful that the doctors and nurses hadn't booted me out when I was behaving so badly. I really should have been held under the mental health act but my doctor is very loose when it comes to that. Maybe thats a good thing, maybe he was playing with my life. Finally, I am going to work on my mental health more seriously, like being compliant and not doing drugs. I might have the odd social drink but leave it at that. It is pretty much standard fair here in Australia. A bad habit to break.

I do appreciate all your input and feel ashamed of my behaviour, especially now I am thinking clearer. I am very lucky. Hopefully now I have calmed down and am not psychotic (that I am aware of, my pdoc thought I was still a bit last nigh) I should be able to go home soon. Hopefully after the weekend once I have proved I am stable.I hope that is all. I did hope to respond to all your posts. Please forgive me. I was so unwell, yet that is no excuse for some of my behaviour.