I just want to add, if you look at your two threads can you now see "why" you need to do what you described?

What you are trying to figure out is if an imaginary/made up female can break down and weaken different men. Why would you need that? Why would you find that pleasing? Because that is what happened to you. You are trying to VALIDATE that deep hurt part in yourself caused by your mother. What you are really doing is taking your own anger about this personal challenge out on others.

That isn't how you heal that hurt part, it's "inaccurate". See how your own psychi is working here?

Something to think about.