Hi wander,

I hope I didn't add to you feeling ashamed. And yeah, I need to remember that alcohol is pretty common place there compared to here. I'm glad you're feeling better and sincerely hope you continue getting better.

It's just we are close to the same age and I'd hate to see you following a cycle that is really detrimental to your health. I've lost friends that had mental health issues as well as drug and alcohol. Here, in my city you don't really receive mental health treatment if you're poor and using. They just won't give them to you unless you go to rehab. I don't agree with it but that's how it is.

My son has a psychotic disorder and was smoking weed. They refused to treat him until he quit and had a couple clean ua's. He is doing much better off the weed and stickingto taking his meds more.

Anyway, I would hate to see you live your life in and out of the hospital all the time. Stability can feel pretty awesome if you let it.