Hi noonereally
Getting yourself out and about in the world to establish a degree of independence would make all the difference imo. Although you say that you aren't satisfied in your work environment, putting your head down and saving a deposit for a rental with perhaps a friend might be doable...anything worth while takes a lot of hard work.
For those who feel alone, or simply wanting to reach out for a chat without judgement......Psych Central is the place. There are many good listeners here... we're a pretty good bunch.
I have been an active member of this site for 4 years. In that time I have received some really constructive feedback and connected with several others with similar challenges to myself. I have also found hanging out in the Games Forums to be a welcome distraction in times of stress... a great way to clear my head, meet like minded others, and have some well needed fun. New members benefit greatly from perusing the many forums available here...lots to explore.
Also after 5 approved posts members have the option to join the chatrooms..or chat one on one with other members.
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Please be kind & generous to yourself noonereally, and welcome to P.C