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Old Feb 08, 2019, 03:23 AM
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Originally Posted by cashart10 View Post
I am scared to go to sleep and I
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I told my therapist that. I started talking about how my current emotions match those that I felt in high school and I don’t understand why and so it is excruciating. We did EMDR on high school fears and thoughts, and current, and connecting the two. I realized the feeling I am feeling is the biggest one. It is the one rooted farthest from reality and it is the most difficult to experience or process. I can’t make it stop and I don’t know if meds can turn off evil.
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but I couldn’t do that to my family, especially my son who, in his autistic mind, worries about me dying incessantly. I hate myself. I really do. I loathe myself. In the here and now, I just want to be alone.
I am so sorry you are struggling in this way. I’m glad you have an appointment Monday. Are you going to be safe until then? It’s good that the thought of your son keeps you around. I can understand that. I stick around for my daughter.

Do you think you need IP or IOP? You definitely could use a leave from your job as you mentioned above until you are feeling better. I hope you feel better soon and things smooth out for you. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.
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Anonymous46341, cashart10, MickeyCheeky, TheSeaCat, Wild Coyote
Thanks for this!
cashart10, MickeyCheeky