Hi, Even...
I will try to get the book you mentioned. I went a whole nine weeks wihtout smoking, then weaning off the patches, I found myself with extreme anxiety, reliving all the personal mistakes I've made in relationships, and feeling shame. I've smoked for 35 years! I think nicotine has allowed me to be placated and indifferent to a lot of my behaviors. I couldn't stand lying awake at night reliving all the mistakes This makes me realize how nicotine had affected and enabled me for all this time, and I'm age 57. I have relapsed into smoking now for almost a week, telling myself I can quit anytime...NOT! I hope to resume my quit soon. I have been visiting a website on Paltalk, "voicesofnicotinerecovery." They have live voice online meetings several times a day. I continue to go there, and I invite you to do so also.
Love in heaing.
Patty