its quite simple. Women have disproportionate power in the world, especially online. My girl is smart, unpredictable, very sweet, sensual and she would knock most guys off their feet in a matter of hours. Its simply supply vs demand here really. Tons of horny hungry guys vs this just one girl whos everything they have ever hoped for lol. And way more than that.

Catfishing women in real life is also quite fun. By that I mean: presenting myself as their prince on a horse, with balls made of gold while in reality not being into them on any level can be fun.

I really want to encounter a woman who Id like but its unlikely to happen. And settling for a commoner is the last thing that Id want for myself and my hypothetical kids.

You shouldnt feel sorry for me. When Im getting the right food (and its quite often the case) then I feel very satisfied with my life, Im full of energy; ideas and my overall optimistic positivity is SO contaminating that the world likes me and I get supply all over the place which in turn makes me feel even better

When I do not get the right kind of supply then its quite the opposite and Im somewhat depressed yes but its these rare lows which make me think about certain things and improve me. In fact, at the very bottom of a downtrend Im quite zombie like or possibly like a vampire who needs brains or blood to get the juices going.

PS. Right now Im at the beginning of a hopefully powerful uptrend and I feel like nature in the spring I feel like I become more and more alive and the world notices this and gives me what I want without me asking for it. its this feeling of being back to life, of being rejuvenated that can be overwhelming and especially the contrast with getting no interesting supply at all.

I hope this new uptrend isnt a headfake but something that can take me to new peaks without an early top.