Thank you. Amid some other rocky things happening with the therapist, I didn't go to bed until 2am that night. But that's a different topic altogether. I'm finding that we may be fundamentally a bad fit... after three years of working together.

ETA: In my email to her, I did share that I looked up some of those names on the list. I said that it is a hypervigilant thing that I do. I had previously shared with the therapist that I do this in every aspect of my life: professors; supervisors; coworkers; and peers - basically anyone who comes in contact with me. Now, if I can see those names on my Skype account, chances are they can see me, too. So being hypervigilant and always covering my back, I looked them up.

The therapist said that what I did was wrong. She said that if I knew they were possibly her patients, friends, or family, I should not have looked their names up because that is "snooping."

I did feel guilty for what I did. But I wasn't sure if it was truly wrong. The therapist said it is wrong. I asked a clinical social worker and a friend and both said it wasn't wrong.

The therapist already knows that I have looked her family up in the past. One of her daughters work for a journal and the therapist knows that I have read her news articles. Back then, the therapist didn't say that what I did was wrong. In fact, she said, "What's public information is public."

But what I did in this instant is wrong? What's the difference? Or did she change??