I am so sorry you are struggling in this way. I’m glad you have an appointment Monday. Are you going to be safe until then? It’s good that the thought of your son keeps you around. I can understand that. I stick around for my daughter.

Do you think you need IP or IOP? You definitely could use a leave from your job as you mentioned above until you are feeling better. I hope you feel better soon and things smooth out for you. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.