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Originally Posted by AbladeintheMeadow
Thank you for replying.
It means the world to me.
Sometimes...no a lot of the time I just feel so alone. I cry. I cry myself to sleep.
I don't know why don't nights are worse than others.
I crave affection.
I long to be hugged. Properly. By someone who cares about me. And more than that I want to feel.that hug. Inside me. I'm so numb. As much as I crave it - I can't feel it.
I don't feel like I'm making any sense.
I'm grateful to you for replying. So grateful. Thank you.
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It makes sense to me. I can't imagine (aside from some people on the autistic spectrum and a few similar types) not wanting affection, to be really held and hugged and truly cared for.
When I've been denied it for so long, I start to wonder if I could feel it.
(I've never had the experience. I have avoidant personality disorder.)
Nights are my low ebb. I'm tired, often not busy enough, it's dark. Often not a good time for me. I get that too.
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