I guess there are two ways at looking at it: a new beginning, or everything is lost. If you could pick one i think i know what it would be!! But i understand it isn't as easy as that, if only life were! I wish you weren't so negative about yourself, i understand life ain't going your way right now and the depression is lying to you big time but despite it being negative...you are pretty funny. I know it is probably humour to cover things up - its what i use too - but it is still a very good quality.
Be kind to yourself, life gives us hills and valleys....maybe you are at the start of a very tall mountain??! Haha sorry what an awful analogy...i really shouldn't even try!
Take care,