BirdDancer, thank you for sharing this story. It makes me feel less alone somehow.

In the last 12 years, I've been rejected by a psychologist (on my second visit with her) and dropped by a psychiatrist (after 3 years as his patient).

The psychologist said she didn't work with people who were trying to get over addictions. She did at least refer me to someone else.

The psychiatrist dropped me after I emerged from a month-long hospitalization following my only suicide attempt, telling me he couldn't work with a suicidal patient. No referral. (I landed back in the hospital, where I then underwent ECT.)

Though I went through a few more pdocs in subsequent years, a year ago I finally found a wonderful, compassionate & competent psychologist who has been more helpful to me than anyone in my life.

I agree with those who say she did you a favor--but I can relate. Each time for me, it felt like the ultimate rejection.