I'll simply keep playing because I believe it's good for the connection of brain hemispheres. Because you have to play with both hands independently. I definitely have a hard time using both hemispheres at once. So I'll take it just as a neurological exercise or playing a game in order to train my brain using an app. It makes me feel good when I get through a level. It makes me feel like "hey, I can learn something!". So yeah... I will never be one of those who play music with feeling, but I might keep using it as a form of brain training. Perhaps it will help to heal my brain a little.

When it comes to passive listening, I can only do that for a short time when I'm in an exceptionally great and unusually relaxed mood. Otherwise it causes me anxiety.
What was bothering me most was what should I say when someone asks me about it so I don't look weird. I will say I like the 80's. It's mostly true, 80's usually don't make me anxious And it's a culturally acceptable answer, too. (hey, I told you I don't have a unique personality! I just try to copy and learn from my environment and people around me lol)