I did some brownie binge eating this morning. I shouldn't have made them. I'm not entirely "right" and though I'm not a regular binge eater, sometimes when not balanced, that is my self medication. I even made a "small batch" of brownies, but if you eat almost all of them small batch doesn't matter. At least I threw away the last 25% of them, and poured soy sauce on them for good measure. I have high cholesterol. Am I trying to hurt myself? I ate the equivalent to three tablespoons of butter, plus a lot of sugar.

I have to go to the grocery store, but I don't feel up to it. But once I get in the car it will happen.

I love to cook, normally, but haven't been as enthusiastic about it lately. I sometimes wish I had a nutritionist/chef who would cook healthful, delicious, lowish fat/calorie meals for my husband and me for a few months. Then we could both drop at least 10 to 15 lbs (maybe more for hubby) and then get "reset" in a sense. With spring temps hopefully coming soon, it would also be good to finally do at least a little exercise.

I'm actually thinking about looking at those meal prep kits they sell (i.e. Blue Apron). If we found a recommended healthful meal option plan that could encourage better eating for a while and I might even be a little excited about it.

I could eat broccoli every day of the week, but I've eaten so little of it these past 22 years. Hubby hates broccoli and some other vegetables I'd LOVE to eat more of. And he dislikes my stir fries for some reason. I love them. If I ate stir fries six times per week I'd feel much better.