I'm so sorry, Dnester This must be very confusing for you. If your therapist doesn't have much experiences with DID, perhaps you should change your therapist as soon as you can? After all, that's what you're getting treatment for. I know it's hard, since you've said you have transference issues, but I'm not sure if there are any other options. Whathever you do, stay safe and take care of yourself. I agree with AlwaysChanging2 that labels aren't always so important. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. Take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. Try to hang on. I hope you'll feel better soon. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you