I'm really sorry that you're in such a bad place right now. It's hard when distraction doesn't work. Can you think about what is causing the intense emotions behind wanting to cut. Sometimes when I can clearly name the emotion that's making me want to cut, I find it easier to find alternatives.

But rapunzel's right - ultimately we have to learn to tolerate our feelings if we're ever going to learn healthier ways of dealing with them. it's not easy by any stretch of the immagination, but it's an important step on the road to recovery.

Hang in there.

-splitimage