I think I'll write a real check in for the first time in a while. I think I'm mixed, but mildly and then something triggers me and then I'm hospital level bad and yell and cry for a bit. I'm in a lot of physical pain with rashes on my shoulders that make it impossible to fall asleep and just general soreness.
I was also told my cholesterol and triglycerides were high but I'm on several meds that can cause that, but I'm eating obsessively healthily now.
I don't want to open up to anyone either partially because I'm trying to deny anything wrong is happening and because I don't want anyone else to think something about how I'm living is somehow wrong.
Hugs to anyone else struggling and wants some