had you noticed I'd lost weight before I mentioned it?
could you tell the difference after I mentioned it? Or is it still not a noticeable difference?
Did you notice and figure it was because I'd been sick? I wasn't lying, it really wasn't intentional.
I'm trying to do what I told you I'd do.
I'm trying not to do body checks.
But I accidentally noticed my spine
And now I can't stop touching it
why does this have to be so complicated?
why can't I just lose a bit more weight without spiraling?
if I say these things to you you'll make me be rational about it and I don't want to be.
I want to not tell you so that I don't have to acknowledge what I already know.